Questions to your questions!

 Am I acting as I don't know?

Or am I pretending belief of the fake?

Am I ignoring the efforts?

Or am I cruel enough to be selfish?

Am I consciously avoiding the encounter?

Or am I afraid of the surety?

Am I challenging myself?

Or restricting to be vulnerable?

Not understanding of what I am doing

Pushing you further away from me. 

And this is my answer to you.